I am at the Cross right now. Waiting for Steph to finish her test because my COACH client for today canceled on me. He is still feeling sick. Anyways, I was just thinking…
To put things bluntly, it really sucks being stuck in the middle of a battle. With arrows and bullets exchanged, it is really hard to not get hit. Haha. I just noticed I said, “to put things bluntly,” but here I wrote a hella metaphoric sentence. lol. Yes, I am free writing.
So to get back on track, it is hard to be a mediator. I hate seeing friendships end, but sometimes it is inevitable. It sucks. It’s sad. What was needed was closure. And closure was given last night, although it may have been nasty. Closure doesn’t mean that it’s going to be a happy ending. Closure means this is what is real, so forget fairy tales and let’s be real. Being in the middle of everything has opened my perspective even more. Like I said, it saddens me that friends are no longer friends, but it’s not like I could have changed it. They are in control of their own lives, their own relationships, like I am in control of my life, my own relationships. Only the mediator, I could only mediate the situation to not be as worse as it could have gotten. The conclusion has been said and done. I can’t change anything, but merely be a spectator from a glass window.
After everything, it is sad to see friendships end, but it is the best for everyone. It’s like… seeing a worn-down bridge between two warring cities finally fall, but not being able to do anything because you are at a distance. It’s like that for me. I like both cities and I will miss that bridge for its history, but ultimately the best for both. Now, each city can do their own thing; build houses, expand, etc. Haha. I laugh at my attempt at a metaphor, but it’s the only way I can describe how I feel right now. Uncultivated Rabbits!
As I have learned growing up, talking things out whether for the better or for the worse is always good for you. Communication is key, and closure is the door. Whether to know-know to let people into your life, or know-know to keep people out of your life.
I hope both cities become as prosperous going toward their own separate directions.
Just more reflecting thoughts of a passerby.